I should probably update my picture, I don't much look like that anymore. Surprisingly, I still have that shirt... So I'm sick and sleepy, but I'm gonna have to admit I'm at work. Times are tough for everyone, and I can't afford to lose a day more than anyone else can. Surprisingly, I'm not broke. I've actually got money in my pocket to do whatever I want with. So what's been going on with me? All sorts of things. A good deal of it IS important, to me at any rate, but I suppose I should limit my topic today. Hmm... What shall it be... Ah, getting out of pay-day advance hell. It's simple really. Pay them every penny you can afford to pay (without losing out on the essentials!) until it's gone. It's better never to get one (let alone the three I sorta kinda had going on at the same time), and it's even harder to get out of that kind of debt. The money you borrow today is the money you could've had tomorrow. By the time I was out of that mess, well... If instead of borrowing it I had saved it, I would have had three times (easily, closer to four as I do the math) the amount I borrowed. And that's all I've got to say about that.

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So it has undoubtedly been the better part of a year since the last time I enjoyed the luxury of the internet for anything beyond research and homework. So why now? I'm cheating, of course. I switched jobs in april, so now I check people into the River Palms hotel. I have some updating to do, if I remember I'll back post a bit and see how far my story goes. I've got a myspace account, but I do not really use it much. I've got video email that I use once in awhile too, but again not so much lately. I can't seem to find the satisfaction I once did in games, and for some god awful reason I actually started to worry about my health. Seriously, where did that come from anyway? So I eat healthier now than I did before. No more sweets, which is fine they hurt my teeth anyway. I've reduced my starches and my calories too. No more fast food of any sort (well, maybe once a month eh?). Milk is good for you, but too much can be bad (especially loaded with chocolate) so I cut back on that. I don't drink much soda, few cups of mt dew for the extra caffeine but I switched to water. A cool, clear cup of ice cold water tastes great to me anyway, so that was no big deal. The biggest difference is that instead of a muffin and something random for lunch I make myself up a salad. Start with the lettuce, I mix a little iceburg with a lot of romaine, add in carrots, sliced egg, sliced and chopped ham and turkey, parmesan cheese, shredded swiss, no croutons but I do use olives and top it off with some fat free honey mustard dressing. Seriously, it really does taste just fine! =) So who the hell am I anyway? I'm just another silly guy, juggling my car payment with my insurance and my rent while balancing school work with real work and wondering when the payoff is. Notice that this is all one big block paragraph, and despite decent puntuation and grammar there are still some little errors? I REFUSE to fix em. I do enough of that in school (all APA formatted) for misc. reports and whatnot. So, sing with me, dance with me, call me an odd sort but don't forget me entirely. At least... not yet.

I can't seem to find the time to get online anymore. I'm not even really here for my school enough, lol I got dropped from my last class for lack of attendance.. that's bad. There's a million things it seems that I need or want to do and I just can't seem to find any time. Not fun, not cool. Still, it's life for ya. Anyway I'll try and post on wed when I get some time off, if I can keep it off.

Anyway, I got promoted to supervisor at long last, got keyed and coded, computer info.. whole nine yards. My last paycheck was cut in half cuz my old manager forgot to file the payroll, and I didn't get that til tuesday (instead of FRIDAY!) and life sucks. I barely made rent, my own little personal store of emergency cash is blown and I'm starting to go sane. But at least the cat isn't in heat anymore. Oi vei, talk about a headache. Anywayz, lots of love to you my friends, and may the good days be better than the bad ones!

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Why the hell is everybody dying now anyway? Is there something in the bloody water? My uncle, Miriam, My Aunt, that Mary chick I used to work with forever ago... Anyone else planning to be killed anytime soon? People wonder why I'm so irreligious. Tch. If there is a God I'll not justify his actions by crying that "He's taken them to a better place," or maybe that his/her "Divine plan called for them to be taken now." If I ran around taking people ANYWHERE I'd be called a kidnapper and prolly worse, and if I'd killed anyone I'd be a murderer... So is "God" a murderer? Or just an ass? Considering how cheap it is to create gods, you'd have thought we'd have a reasonable one. "Oh, God killed these people because he hates people who drive on sundays. Got to kill em all!" ... Ooookaaay. w/e goes.

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My Aunt Lynn... she was one of the coolest Aunts you could ever find. She died on Tuesday January the 23rd, 2007. I miss her much...

Jason and some friends are planning to move to Germany in the next year or two, and then start a metal band. Sounds like fun, maybe I will! Still jsut thinking about it though, two years is more than enough time hehe

Work is cool, got my Jan pay raise =P Soo what's next!

I'm not doing too much atm, school work and kinda just... I dunno here. So Gary-san offered me a chance at Los Angeles... Im thinking about it too. Lets see, oh yeah. The reasoning is pretty obvious. My brother and his boy-toy went and told off the wrong boss, so anyway they lost their jobs and the idea is to move back in with Bruce. Uhm.. No merci. 500 a month, but the work is a hell of a lot better and it's full time verses part time... I don't know, told em I'd think about it. I'd have to save up a little more cash to show up anyway, so I'll have to give it alot of thought. Aside from that, there is all the friends I have here, and the certain knowledge that most of them I'll never see again when I leave. Maybe I'll add a few to myspace lol! Who knows. Alright, I'm off for now, see ya!

Sing with me! Oooooooooh....! Where oh where have my mem'ries gone? Have you see nthem anyone? I can't seem to find them at all, it seems like the vodka stole them from me.... ((where oh where has my baby gone? oh never mind!)

Last night.... Damn it's all fragmented... Lets see.. I met Rozaline, shelikes to be called rose (like the flower) and she's like... 19 tops. I'm betting high school, haha. There were a couple of drinking games, some music... thetwo year anniversary of the death of Dimebag.... My sis and kat and amanda came over, I did... I don't know.. ten? Eleven? shots of vodka. I really just lost track, and I sorta kinda haven't been eating right.. so I'd had breakfast, but no lunch or dinner andso I got BLITZED! I remember staring at the tv... and then I was outside on a chair, soaking wet, and I don't know what the hell happened between then. Oh and the time was like... four am? I dunno. LOL I guess I got a few kisses, because there was smeared lipstick on my face this morning. I woke up on the bathroom floor with no recollection of how I got there. OH! LOL They call me "Nitro" and while I'm not 100% sure why, it's something to throw out there. Anyway I may give up drinking altogether, I mean really... Having no idea what the hell I did scares teh hell out of me!

On top of all of that, I got home tonight and my bed was still packed >< Damn it, I think my lord and goddess, Luck/ruthia, has turned her back on me... She's such a fickle bitch!

Ugh, not that I mind the party scene but sometimes enough is enough! Now I loved the live bands, (www.theswiftkick.com and www.newbreedband.com) and the drinking was fun enough... But I have vague recollections of getting Danielle's (the cocktail waitress') phone number, and I was picked up on by a guy, and then there were the sisters who just wanted to dance.. But they do like Risque dancing? So that was kinda fun, but kinda wierd. *Shivers* I feel so dirty!! So I started with an Adios mother fucker, and followed that with a Kamikazee, long island ice tea to slow up a bit, three more kamikazees (one yellow, one red, one blue), the three wise men (Jim, Jack, and Jose baby, YEAH!), tequila sunrise to slow down again, two more Kamikazees (got a red and a kinda white), then a Monster and Vodka mix.... Then midnight came. I switched to water, cuz I was buzzin a little, and because I ALWAYS tip well my cocktail waitress was bringin me the good stuff for nothin. =) That's why you should be good to your serving crew, that and the movie "Waiting." Go watch it, nuff said. I'm going to go now, but I'm sure we'll meet again!

So I guess everyone wonders what the hell happened to me last night/today. Alright, I'll tell ya! I got off of work at 8pm PST, and I stayed later and just helped get it all cleaned up. After that, Jason challenged me to a duel (Magic the gathering?) and so I lost a few hands, we picked up some beers,invited some friendsalong, watched Grandma's Boy (every gamer should see this movie!), Anchorman and afew other movies, passed out sometime around 7amPST andwoke up like two hours ago. Came home, and here I am!

Am I really that moody? Maybe. *shrugs* Alright so the good news is that my dear girlfriend still adores me, but the bad news is that I'm still here in BHC. I LONG to be away from here! I should be gone by now, anywhere but here, but newp. *sigh* Land of Confusion video erred today on MTV2, yeah I voted for it! One of my fav songs atm. Jason, at work, intro'd me to the whole dark rock theme, kinda getting into it.

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It's bloody insane! Why do I bother with this place again? I should just go! Oregon is nice, and of course there is THE only city worthy of the name. So what to do? La de da. I'm looking forward to escaping this damned black hole town. Why? Because Bullhead and Needles and even Laughling will suck you in and leave you with nothing but the memory of who you were. It's funny, I used to have such grand dreams.. Now my dreams are all about getting out of here.

So we got in a fight and I haven't seen her for a few days.. is this a hint of things to come? Or is this just a no big deal affair that will blow over like those few other battles that almost seemed to come to blows? *sighs* I don't know, but suddenly nothing seems to matter. Maybe it's just me, maybe I really am as bad as I seem to be sometimes. That's fine then, you know I can live with myself. I lose some sleep from time to time over my choices, and my mistakes, but damn it this is my story, my life, and when my end finds me I'll be ready!

So all my fans, go grab your metallica CD's! You know you have em, pull em out and sing along with me! Are you ready? Who CARES if you sound good or bad, play it loud and sing with me!

"Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know
So close, no matter how far, couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are, no nothing else matters."

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*sighs* I've been tempted not to write this one.. nobody likes bad news, it totally ends a story... Alright, first I'm going to tell you why it's my fault, then what happened. Hate me not, lest I get rich and powerful and then remember you hated me! *Glares*

Seriously, a few months ago my brother and sister were trying to get me to go on a blind date with someone. And I thought it'd be cool, I mean just for kicks. I didn't want a relationship, but I do enjoy my friends... Well my brother informed me that I was going period, and you know that is the real reason I did not go? She took it personally, I hadn't known how bad... So I was letting her get over it and figured I'd try the friends thing, but by now it just wasn't happening so w/e. Well thanksgiving comes, and she didn't want to spend the day here because of my actions, lol her mom and brother did plan to come over...
And their mother showed up at three am that evening. I saw someone at the door, she'd been working up the courage to knock. She was shaky, but I didn't know what was up. Anyway she went to my room, where chris was watchin some sap story on the Tele and told her.. then about five minutes later I found out, Miriam is dead. What the hell can I say to them? And the really fucked up bit is that all I had to do was apologize, make up some excuse and make it up to her by like.. going to a movie or something. Just as friends, everyone knows I've got a girlfriend. Now I have to tiptoe around the subject, and everyone is telling me how it's not my fault, but damn it I was raised to at least admit to myself when I've made a mistake, and this is a pretty big one! *sighs* I'm going to go now, thanks for stoppin by.

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I went as a midival peasant, but hell who cares right? I went out of costume to carry my favorite Katana, but I got away with it. Only cops I saw were five and ten, lmao. Hmm... I heard from Alex today, it's always great to hear from her. Hmm... I told you about Crystal and her girlie friend? Oh.. Well Crystal was one of my sisters friends for the year and a half she bothered to stay in high school. And her friend is like thirty five. Anyway I guess they were talking to me about something, and I chatted, and then I heard a "You really should save your breath. That boy's a one woman man, I've been trying to get in his pants for almost a year now!" and I of course blushed and found an excuse to hide. =P Not exactly what I was expecting that evening lol.

Yes dear, I told em I was going out wif joo, doesn't that jsut curl yer toes and get a grin? Things to do! Get out of Dodge, fast. No I don't drive a Dodge, I told you! It's a 1`988 Jaguar Xj6, Grey, and such a smooth ride! Love me, hate me, PHEAR ME! but dont' hurt my car >< It costs a left nut to repair!

Schools out! Well sorta, next classes started on monday. I'm afraid of my COM125 grade, but in critical thinking I got 94% =) and GPA is currently like 3.87 hehe. Dr. Session kinda scares me a little, do you see me freaking out? I am... that scream is for real! But Christine P is pretty cool, I like her. All praise to lady chance for one good deal lol.

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It's really time to change jobs, this one I have jsut isn't cutting it. I might stay on part time though. It's just too far to drive for a part time position, lol and while they're offering me a payraise I could make more here. Moving into a bigger place here in BHC, and lookin into this position at lowes.. ten bucks an hour is like a three dollar an hour payraise plus more hours, guaranteed. =P I'm not telling you about the drama, or the crazy times, that little stint over in arkansas with the cute japanese twins... just kidding, I haven't been to Arkansas since we drove to Ohio. And there were no twins lol =P

We got robbed the other night. Woman came in, grabed soem stuff and ran.. I mean seriously, what the hell is wrong with these people? I HATE NEEDLES. ty.

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